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"I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity. During these

fits of absolute unconsciousness, I drank--God only knows how often or

how much. As a matter of course, my enemies referred the insanity to

the drink rather than the drink to the insanity. I had, indeed, nearly

abandoned all hope of a permanent cure, when I found one in the

death of my wife. This I can and do endure as becomes a man. It was

the horrible never-ending oscillation between hope and despair which I